Weak and Wounded...
"As you live in close contact with Me, the Light of My
Presence filters through you to bless others. Your weakness and woundedness are
the openings through which the Light of the knowledge of My Glory shines forth.
My strength and power show themselves most effective in your weakness."
~excerpt from Jesus Calling, January 23rd.
Wow...it's been a while since I posted anything. This above portion of the January 23rd Jesus Calling post
reminded me of the type of year 2016 was for me. Weak and wounded... This post
also helps me realize that I've come a loooong way. I'm still working out a few last emotions, but I have most certainly overcome the bulk of the hurts.
Let's see....
• I ended a relationship with a narcissist who pushed me
into a wall (which resulted in a broken wrist).
• I healed from a broken wrist.
• My best friend and life long "big sis" of over
30 years ended our relationship without a clear explanation --- via an email
message.
• Along with my "BFF sis" went my "big
bro" (her husband) and my Goddaughter of 23 years, both who followed suite
in no contact.
• My (now 18 year old) child was exercising her growth by
ensuring *I* knew she was about to be an adult.
• A dear friend buried her beautiful 22-year old daughter
because of a senseless car crash.
The common thread here was rejection and/or loss. My heart
was heavy most of the year.
There were a variety of other situations that occurred, but
combined they have all been enough to bring me to a level so deep I thought I'd
never see the light again. It's funny, post a few pics of my ‘good’ days and
most think I had a great year. But, I can honestly say I understand why people
feel so lonely and alone and want to end their life. Thankfully, I'm too
responsible [and chicken] for that, so instead I dreamt of my big escape...a
getaway where I'd move to another country, change my name, and forever
disappear. And then, there was God…
God used me in my brokenness to demonstrate effectiveness in
HIS strength and power.
I...WAS...BROKEN. -> Emotionally. -> Physically. -> Mentally. -> Spiritually. Yet, in the midst of the mire, God was there. He lifted me. He held me tight. And reminded me who I am to Him. He showed
me where HE needed me and though many times numb, I obliged...and grew. Some examples include:
• To encourage a friend.
• To share my story and speak to other women who also experienced narcissistic
relationships and needed to escape.
• To encourage others who's friends/family members had
walked out on their relationship, too.
• To listen to those who also had challenges with their
children.
• To love on those in their mourning, since, I too had buried someone I
loved dearly.
• To start a Bible study with a group of women who are
seeking God in mighty ways.
AND each time, He was using all of it to mold me further. I
finally realized it... =)
I can’t say I know what the next step will be, but I do know
for certain that God was with me, has been with me and healing me, will
continue to be with me and work in me, and has already gone before me because
ultimately, it is for HIS glory. I'M SO GLAD I BROKE IN 2016!!!
And guess what? HE WILL USE YOUR BROKENNESS TOO…IF you let
Him. SHARE YOUR STORY WITH SOMEONE TODAY....
#RejectionToRedemption #AshesToBeauty #ThankYouJesus
~God’s Chick
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified
because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you
nor forsake you.” ~Deuteronomy 31:6
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